#muchlove

I hope time can be rewind.

I miss my friends in LUCT so much.

Was thinking of how we met, how they've changed my mind, how if I'm still there...

My ex-house-mate, Emelia and I used to walk and sit by the swimming pool and chitchat. Anything could be the topics. She's a sweet but pessimistic girl.

My ex-room-mate, Yuki told me horror stories and ended up both of us can't fall asleep then had a long heart-to-heart talk.

My ex-neighbourhood, Valerie is such an insane. I can be so crazy with her. We did all the silly things just to prank people and get their attentions. There will be full of laughters when she's around.

My ex-course-mate, Rathnam, an innocent but kind guy. He's so kind to feed the strange cats and donate to the poor ones. He liked to bring me everywhere to dine with him. I feel so sorry for him for being cheated by girls. He's the only guy in the world that I can talk openly and frankly with.

My best friend, Ree. The most memorial place for both of us is the Sushi King, Alamanda where we spent our time during break, shared our stories and sang together in her car.

And a gang of foreign friends. Hakim, my big brother there who appreciates our friendship so much. Mansour, the sweet and adorable guy! He's so ambitious and smart too. "Moo", a cute and shy guy who likes to play basketball with me and guess what he sang birthday song to me with Emelia and Valerie through the phone! Mustafa who likes to sing. Jon Ibrahim, the humour Chinese guy who likes basketball. Saeed! who likes to call me "princess"? haha. I can't believe that he's already doing Master in IT when he first told me. 

We liked to gather around the basketball court or swimming pool to talk, to sing, to learn Arabic and to share everything!

Awww... I really miss you guys. I feel so sorry that I can't make it to go back to Desaria.

Sleepless nights

I hate nights.
Hate sleepless nights.
I close my eyes but can't shut the tear barriers.

I'm not sad.

But sometimes, I just want to hide.

Hide those feelings somewhere deep in my mind.

Even I can't reach there.

Why can't we control our own minds from thinking too much?

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 7 onwards

Everything has changed.
They don't feel the same.

The end.

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 6

"I don't know what we are. Sometimes I feel like we are friends, sometimes I feel like we are more than friends and sometimes I feel like I've never known you at all..."

Monologue by the girl.

She should...

Quit cheating herself that the best thing that could ever happen to her.

Quit cheating him of the same.

Fall hard, fall long and fall forever...

At some points, she has got to just jump. She has to quit from being scared of the "maybes" and "what-ifs".

Be strong, be tough and be brave.

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 5

No hard feelings, no one to blame. just two people who don't feel the same.

The further you drag, the deeper the scar...

Whenever she faces problem, the third person she thinks of always is him.

The first is the God, no offence; while second comes to her family of course.

He'll always stay beside her and support her no matter what, and she is kinda sure that it will never change.

However, she didn't full-fill her promises to him, she couldn't help him out when he faced problems or met obstacles... and she feels so sorry for that.

She is such an evil.

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 3

To: You

    I'm not feeling good at all. You had paid off so many things just for me but I'm treating you in this way. What did I do for you? Nothing... You understand me so well, and I think I'm not that understand you in the same way, but I definitely know how do you feel always. You even tried very hard to let my family and friends to accept you, but why did I never think of... I'm so selfish!!!

By,

A selfish girl

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 4

"Follow your heart," said by her friend...

But she doesn't even know what does she want.

It's either just go with it or leave it.

It's a hard decision, after one week, does she really can give him an exact answer?

No one knows, even herself but she has to.

And this week hurts both sides...

She cannot treat him like normal, it's unfair to him.

He has waited her for almost four years, and he's still waiting for her.

He's too good to her and she always thinks that she does not deserve it.
He has changed everything just for her. She knows...and that's why she doesn't decline him until now...

         

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 2

which one do you prefer

 

Such a pain...
After she sent the last few messages, she could feel the pain...

The very first time, but didn't know why.
The very first time she could really feel the pain physically.

  

So sorry...

It hurts.
She feels very guilty that she hurt him once again.
However, she does know that it hurts and she doesn't want to, she even feels the sadness every time...

Mr. & Elle: Torn - Day 1

Because of Tarot, the girl or confident?
He's not confident in her?
He always thinks that she will fall easily to another guy?
Why doesn't he be more confident in himself and the girl?

He always asks her to follow a better guy if she meet one in one day.
She knows that is for her own good, he wants her to be more happy...
but how would the girl treat him in that way... she won't...
At the very first time, the girl ever asked him to find a better girl in his life and forget her.
She knows that she's not the kind of girl that he would like.
Of course he said he can't leave her....and the girl truly believes it till now.
But why can't he believes in her in the same way???

They are in different uni and this makes him feel that she will fall for another guy, but did he ever think of, the girl can think in the same way too - he's in another uni, he may fall for another girl... but she didn't and never, because she trusts him.

Maybe the problem is caused by the girl.
.....she never gave a certain answer to him.....


*This one week time is good to let both of them calm down and think over it

Mr. & Elle: The scream in Elle

The first time I answered your phone call after been so long
I've never aspect that I'll answer it while u never aspect it too ;D
All because of I'm your VVIP *winkwink
Thanks for appreciate me like no one did before...

#when I heard your scream after the phone call,,,I smiled
#when I heard your trembling voice and felt your tears of happiness,,,I'm touched

The naive Elle

7,11-6...

Over

Whenever I try to move one step forward, there're always strings pulling me from all direction...
I can't move, I even feel hard to breath.
Whenever I try to accept the challenge, your words pull me back. It does hurt. *really pain

It's like a balloon, air was blew into the balloon, it started to grow, felt comfortable and satisfy.

Too much of air at last or a needle just touched it lightly.
Burst.
It flew away.
Everything gone. The end